I have been gone for a long time. I wanted to return, but I felt that blogging was trivial. Some things have kept me away. First, my daughter has been diagnosed with MS. My wife handled it with her usual grace and aplomb. I, on the other hand was devastated. I tried to hide it, but I was basically nonfunctional over and above my teaching. I have done some research on the disease and I have tried to put a good face on it. But I have basically failed. I turned inside myself and began to feel sorry for myself. I have listened to Elton John music and cried because my daughter and I love his music. The worst of the situation is that I have protected her all her life and now this is something I can't change. This is hard stuff for someone who has been very aggressive all my life and now I am impotent to stop this disease and its effects on my daughter. In other words, I have nothing to fight. Give me an enemy!
I have worked hard to deal with it and I am just now accepting it. My daughter is a rock! She is a certified Social Studies teacher. She is now pursuing a certification in Special Education. She feels a bond with them. I am a pansy, I know, but it is tough for me to accept. I'll get there, because my wife and daughter are better and stronger people than me and they will force me to accept it. I want to fight, they accept. Maybe some day I'll be as tough as they are, but for now I'm working on it.
We have joined the MS society and will be in the walks against the disease, but I feel like it is when we went to her soccer games and cheered for her. Are we just cheerleaders?